“For God so loved the world that God gave God’s one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish, but have eternal life.” – John 3:16
Sometimes, I struggle to believe in my own worthiness.
I see my flaws and I reason that I’m undeserving of any good because of my bad.
Am I really worthy of love and care when I don’t always return every call or every favor? Am I really worthy of my laughter when I’ve caused others tears and sadness? Am I really worthy of spiritual redemption when I’ve had so many missteps in the process of finding it?
In the depths of my doubt, the Spirit whispers a reminder, courtesy of “Worth,” one of my favorite praise songs.
The chorus says:
“You thought I was worth saving. So You came and changed my life.
You thought I was worth keeping. So You cleaned me up inside.
You thought I was to die for. So You sacrificed your life.
So I could be free. So I could be whole. So I could tell everyone I know.”
Who am I to question my worthiness when I’ve already been declared worthy by God?
Before I took my first breath, God loved who I was, who I am, and who I will become.
God’s call for me is to embrace a spiritually abundant life, despite my shortcomings. Thankfully, my worthiness isn’t something I get to decide.
Worth isn’t some kind of currency exchange of good or bad deeds, where I can try to make up for the things I wasn’t or perhaps will never be.
Heaven already thought I was worth saving. Thank God that makes me worthy enough.
When I question my worth, I’m thankful that through Jesus Christ, I’ve already been given my answer.
Marchaé Grair is the Digital Content Manager at the United Church of Christ and editor of the UCC blog, New Sacred.