Written by Marchae Grair
"For God so loved the world that God gave God's one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish, but have eternal life." - John 3:16
Sometimes, I struggle to believe in my own worthiness.
I see my flaws and I reason that I'm undeserving of any good because of my bad.
Am I really worthy of love and care when I don't always return every call or every favor? Am I really worthy of my laughter when I've caused others tears and sadness? Am I really worthy of spiritual redemption when I've had so many missteps in the process of finding it?
In the depths of my doubt, the Spirit whispers a reminder, courtesy of "Worth," one of my favorite praise songs.
The chorus says:
"You thought I was worth saving. So You came and changed my life.
You thought I was worth keeping. So You cleaned me up inside.
You thought I was to die for. So You sacrificed your life.
So I could be free. So I could be whole. So I could tell everyone I know."
Who am I to question my worthiness when I've already been declared worthy by God?
Before I took my first breath, God loved who I was, who I am, and who I will become.
God's call for me is to embrace a spiritually abundant life, despite my shortcomings. Thankfully, my worthiness isn't something I get to decide.
Worth isn't some kind of currency exchange of good or bad deeds, where I can try to make up for the things I wasn't or perhaps will never be.
Heaven already thought I was worth saving. Thank God that makes me worthy enough.
When I question my worth, I'm thankful that through Jesus Christ, I've already been given my answer.